Last night I slept with a burden on me… that I had kept a lot of personal work pending… for no reason really… simply out of my indolence… so I vowed to myself to finish most of the pending work today and over this weekend…
Today morning while driving to office, my mind was yet again cluttered with all the pending work… almost haunting me… I reached office and first thing started scrawling down a list of ‘to-dos’…. I generally do this when I want to ensure that I don’t forget the pettiest things while focusing on the important things… so there I started writing my list of to-dos… all of these personal to me… and I was surprised at my own promptness… preciseness… prioritization… and also the awesome co-ordination between my mind and hands… that one page of my note-book was filled up in just a couple of minutes… it felt as if my mind was carrying all this baggage and, given one opportunity (and a helping hand !! literally), poured out all of it on paper… this included paying bills, claiming of expenses, planning holiday… IT return (already late!!), activating credit card (have been avoiding this for a year now!!), an overdue haircut and many more… no point in repeating the whole list here… that by no means will make my resolution to conclude all these things any stronger…
So here I was… sitting with a list of things to-do which ran into one entire page… most critical ones in the beginning… and the inconsequential ones in the end… all of them came off my mind effortlessly though… wonder how our brain is compartmentalized and how does it store all the information as per its relevance… is this what is called intelligence ?? (in one of the gyan sessions in office, I was told that an ability to hold data, slice and dice it in no time and give out information as per relevance is what is business intelligence)… so now I know that I do possess intelligence… almost similar to the super-intelligent systems of today !!!
Coming back to my to-dos, the list seemed really long and undoable… undoable in couple of days time… but I didn’t give up… started one by one… one after the other… multi-tasking most of the times… now look at my intelligence… inspite of having prioritized all tasks based on their criticality and importance, I still chose to do the insignificant and small tasks first… reason being, there will be more ticks (items completed) in less time and that will surely keep me going… to complete the rest of them :)) found this mind-game a little too amusing and started jotting down thoughts on this here…
and now these ‘not yet done’ tasks (supposedly the most critical ones in my list!!) will remain pending till I am subjected to another spell of lumber and sleepless night… that sets me thinking… what does it take to give due importance to ones own work… and spend time doing things for oneself… why do I feel an inherent compulsion in doing office work or in doing household chores… and why is there no urge or inclination to do things that are consequential only to me… how do I endorse this ‘not-to-do’ list to a ‘to-do’ list?? am I being plain lazy, is it some discipline required… or do I need to give more importance to myself, more than the other entities in life… how do I decide my own worth and the merit in saving my energies for myself… is there a remedy to this eternal predicament I face…